No More Excuses

I have learned to love running. Running keeps my head straight and for the first 5 weeks of my time here I didn´t do it. I allways had an excuse... It´s too cold, there is snow on the ground.. this morning a little girl woke me up at 7.30am and I wasn´t too happy about it, cause it was my day off. But then I tought how could I turn this in to a positive thing and I decided to go running and it was so rewarding and just what I needed. I want to learn to do that with other things too. Turn the negative unexpected things into something positive.

I also have loads of excuses for not doing other stuff. They usually involve not being good enough and you are not the person who could do this or that. Lately I have been thinking why not me why do I have this picture of myself in my head that I could not  do something. Then I made a list of all the negative things in my head that had been said to me that were making me doubt my capability of doing things. After this I made a list of things that were encouraging. Things that had been said to me that made me feel good about my self. As I compared these two lists I noticed that the good things were the opposites of the bad things. So I had heard the exact opposite thing against my bad thing and still in my head it was the negative thing that had stuck. Why do I hear the negative things louder than the positive things? Why would the negative things be any more truthful than the positive things?

After this I crossed out all the negative things and left the good things and said to my self that you have to start hearing the positive things too. Don´t make yourself less than you are. If you want to run, go run! If you want to be a writer or a dancer or what ever don´t let the negative things in your head stop you. Don´t feel satisfied being just as you are if you want to be something more. Just because someone has told you that you are week it does not mean you should feel sorry for your self and just say it´s okey that I don´t go for example running cause I have gone trough so much in the past. No! No more excuses!

-Ariela